Test 1, 2, 3.

( A song for each episode of Supernatural Season 6. )

Unless things drastically improve next season, I probably won't be continuing with this, but then gigglingkat doesn't even continue with her own meme, so there.

Woke this morning dull and dusty,
But I will still lead you home,
Though my soul is old and rusty,
I will still lead you home.

You could brake my heart tomorrow,
And I would still lead you home,
Through all happiness and sorrow,
I will still lead you home.

Though our lives have been in danger,
As we saved those lonely strangers,
We will always know each other,
And I will always lead you home.

When the day gets dark and dreary,
I will still lead you home,
When the night has left you weary,
I will still lead you home.

As the shadows are encroaching,
And the end of life's approaching,
We will still be together,
And I will still lead you home.

We will always be together,
And I will always lead you home.

The mp3. Yes, that's Bootsie running amok towards the end (a confluence of decent vocals and no cat noise has not been forthcoming).

Last night before I went to bed I came up with a song for last week's episode of Supernatural which I remember as being "Rise Up With Fists" by Jenny Lewis and the Watson Twins. No problem there.
But I also came up with a song for this week's episode. It's just that now I can't remember what that song is.
And all I can think of is "Battlefield" by Jordin Sparks, and I do associate that song with SPN in the sense that when she gets to my favorite part, "Guess you'd better put on your armour," I picture Jensen Ackles in armour which is really just... yum.
And like, the more I think about it, the more the song sorta works for the episode, but I know it wasn't the song I was thinking of last night.
In trying to retrace my brain processes, I know I was thinking that the title of the ep is the title of that fic I wrote way back in season one, but I don't how I got from there to a song, or even if there's a direct link because my brain makes weird connection sometimes.
But now I'm thinking that the whole "love is a battlefield" thing is sorta perfect for the Winchesters. Love is a battlefield. A battlefield is love. And love is worth the fight. Or something.

A song for each episode of Supernatural Season 4.

( Season 4 )

Just rearranging my internal jukebox, don't mind me.

Possible changes:
S2, Hollywood Babylon from "I Got Rythym" by Ella Fitzgerald to "Act Naturally" by the Beatles.
They're gonna put me in the movies
They're gonna make a big star out of me
We'll make a film about a man that's sad and lonely
And all I gotta do is act naturally

S3, Dream A Little Dream from "Just A Dream" by Griffin House to "Mad World" by Gary Jules.
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take

Pre-series, Sammy goes to college:
--From Dean's perspective: "Kettle's On" by The Feeling
I'm hoping you remember what I taught ya
I'm hoping you remember me at all
I'm strong, but I feel like a mouse when you're gone
Yes, and I'm weak, but I'll take on the world when you're here with me
With me
Can't you see you're in the wrong place,
Will you please face it and come home
--From Sam's perspective: "That's Not Me" by the Beach Boys
I once had a dream
So I packed up and split for the city
I soon found out that my lonely life wasn't so pretty
I'm glad I went now I'm that much more sure that we're ready

General:
--"Dancing In The Moonlight" by King Harvest
We get it on most every night
when that moon is big and bright
its a supernatural delight
everybodys dancing in the moonlight
--"Faithfully" by Journey

In My Time of Dying- Best of You by the Foo Fighters: With Dean as both the person singing the song and the person being addressed by it, and John being the one getting the best of him.
My head is giving me life or death,
But I can't choose,
I swear I'll never give in,
I refuse.
Everybody Loves a Clown- Tears of a Clown by Smokey Robinson & the Miracles: Aside from the obvious clown reference, it's also very applicable to Dean and his "I'm fine." routine.
Now if there's a smile on my face,
It's only there trying to fool the public.
But when it comes down to fooling you,
Now honey that's quite a different subject.
But don't let my glad expression,
Give you the wrong impression,
Really I'm sad, oh I'm sadder than sad.
You're gone and I'm hurtin' so bad,
Like a clown I pretend to be glad.
Bloodlust- bloody by Me: Maybe I should save this one for when James Marsters guest stars, but the vampire references are vague/metaphorical enough as it is, so it could totally apply to Dean. Plus, you know, reformed vampires.
So please don't run away,
There is still time, for you, to save the day,
Please don't cry too long,
Maybe everything won't turn out wrong,
If you could see past the gray,
To find your own sunlight,
And have your own say,
Maybe then you'd know,
The darkness is lacking,
It's not the only way to go,
Don't worry if you feel untrue,
You don't need to breathe,
To do what you do,
Sometimes it might seem too tough,
But if it were easy,
You know that wouldn't be enough,
'Cause it's the challenge that makes you whole,
And gives you a reason,
To save your own soul.
Children Shouldn't Play With Dead Things- Zombie Prostitute by Voltaire: On the one hand, there's the DeanAngst!, on the other hand, yeah, there's her.

Simon Said- Another Brick in the Wall (Part 2) by Pink Floyd: At first I was attracted to this song purely for the "We don't need your mind control" line, but then it occurred to me that the teacher in this instance is the yellow-eyed demon: "Hey! Teacher! Leave those kids alone!"

No Exit- Hey Jealousy by Gin Blossoms: I freely admit that at least part of my Jo hatred is due to insane and illogical jealousy, but there are other reasons I don't like her: she totally ignores Sam and/or signals for him to leave when he's around, which is rich coming from me with all my Dean songs, I know, but it's not that I don't want Sam around, I like Sam plenty (well, except for in Night Shifter when he's a ginormous dickwad to Ronald), I just have a hard time figuring out where his head is at, which is probably why I gravitate towards Dean (yes, there are reasons I prefer Dean other than Jensen being as pretty as all get out)-- even though I might disagree with his reasoning, at least I know what his reasoning is. Besides, Dean isn't Dean without his Sammy. But back to Jo: she also screams really stupidly and badly.

The Usual Suspects- Bad Boys by Inner Circle: This one speaks for itself, I think. I'm desperately in love with the montage o' deceit at the beginning.

Crossroad Blues- Something to Sing About from the Buffy musical: Dean's angst about being brought back from the dead (again!) so makes me think of Buffy's season 6 issues.
All the joy- life sends.
Family and friends
All the twists and bends,
Knowing that it ends.
Well that
Depends
On if they let you go,
On if they know enough to know,
that when you've bowed,
You leave the crowd.
And then the demon saying Daddy is in hell makes this run through my head:
There was no pain,
No fear, No doubt,
Til they pulled me out- of heeeeeeaven.
So that’s my refrain,
I live in hell,
'Cause I was expelled- from heeeeeeaven.
I think I was in heeeeeeaven
Croatoan- Samson by Regina Spektor: Dean's having a crisis of faith. I don't know that he wants to quit forever (though he'd definitely quit life forever if he lost his brother), but just the idea of wanting a vacation (and somehow the Go-Go's Vacation just didn't quite fit the tone). Dean wants Sammy to just be his brother and not have demonically-connected powers and definitely not a destiny, so if he could cut his hair and make that all go away (and the 'Jared needs a haircut' aspect is not lost on me either), he totally would.
Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down,
Yeah, we couldn't destroy a single one
And history books forgot about us,
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once
Dean's okay with hunting because it's the right thing to do, but he's not so keen on that destiny crap, and this song just captures that perfectly for me.

Hunted- Head For The Hills by Saves The Day: Sammy and the wonderkids don't wanna follow the demon, but "If you ever knew what I'm dreaming of, you would head for the hills."
Drowning in the darkness of my mind,
I dream I'm setting fire to everything in sight,
If I die tonight and go to Hell, oh well,
On that hill I see you.

My heart is burning black,
My bones are cold and cracked,
The venom flushed out my veins.
And if you ever knew what I'm dreaming of,
You would head for the hills.
You'd better head for the hills.
You'd better head for the hills.
Playthings- Promises, Promises by Naked Eyes: Dean made Sam promises, promises- he knew he'd never keep.

Night Shifter- Sherry by Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons: I'm still wondering how the cops would explain away this unidentified body that looks exactly like a live woman. And at what point would someone with half a brain notice the astounding coincidence of the other time Dean kills people he somehow fakes his own death with an identical body. I realize it's sadly realistic for the FBI to be sorta dumb, but grow a clue, people.

Houses of the Holy- I Ain't Afraid by Holly Near: It's... not the best song ever, but I like the sentiment, and it's been growing on me. And I did like the preisty dude actually remembering the whole "Thou shalt not kill" thing. The trouble is that Sam is looking for an easy way out, so that it won't be his fault if he goes all dark side, but that's the most dangerous mindset he can have right now. It's easier to go evil if you think it's unavoidable, if you blame it on destiny, or some higher power manipulating/not protecting you, but if he accepts that it's his choice, his decision, he gives himself the power to keep himself from succumbing.

Born Under A Bad Sign- You Are A Runner And I Am My Father's Son by Wolf Parade: In the context of the episode, Jo is the Runner. But I think it also works with Dean as the Runner. Dean would rather run away than face the demon if killing the demon means losing his family. Whereas John and Sam have that single-minded martyr for the cause/revenge thing going on. So yeah, Meg via Sam was so lying about Dean being more like their father.
I'll draw three figures on your heart:
One of them will be me as a boy,
One of them will be me,
One of them will be me watching you run.
Tall Tales- Die Motherfucker Die by Get Set Go: I think the cheerful nature of the music goes along with the Trickster's enjoyment of messing with people. Like, it's not personal malice, just a cheery, "Die, motherfucker, die."

Roadkill- Dead Skunk by Loudon Wainwright III: Look, I loved this episode, and thought it was all deep and existential and such, but despite this, the title takes me to the "Dead Skunk" place.

Heart- The Time Comes by Nina Gordon: So, "the time comes" for Sammy to have some sex, and "Then it goes, and it goes, away." Also, the scene where the three of them are framed in the window, watching the sun rise: "I wait for the day to break me."

Hollywood Babylon- I Got Rythym by Ella Fitzgerald: It's like my SciFi Saturday came two nights early and combined with my favorite TV show. Or as my sister so deliciously put it, it's like if Dean and Bruce could breed. Who could ask for anything more?
Folsom Prison Blues- Jailhouse Rock by Elvis:
The Warden threw a party in the county jail.
What Is And What Should Never Be- Always by Anthony Rapp: This is normally my Dean and Mary song, so it works in that respect, but also in this context as Dean and Sammy. Because any reality where he doesn't call Sammy, 'Sammy' is fundamentally flawed.
I'm up here on my own again, I'm always on my own
They don't know anything at all, they see just what they want
Can't they see I'm not really here? I'm back there with you.

Flying away, wish I could say you would be there tomorrow and always
Just have to go, wish I could know you would always remember me now and always

Turning my face away again, I'm always turned away
Wanting someone to talk it out, without you always

Flying away, wish I could say you would be there tomorrow and always
Just have to go, wish I could know you would always remember me now and always
All Hell Breaks Loose Part 1- A Little Less Conversation by Elvis Presley: I found this episode to be lacking in "oomph". Especially given the title.. I was told there'd be hell breaking loose, dammit! Where's my hell?

All Hell Breaks Loose Part 2- In Time by Mark Collie: Because in the midst of my "Wow, Thomas Jane looks weirdly like Colin Ferguson-[The Punisher kills a bunch of people]- Okay, so, Colin Ferguson, but like, a bazillion times more hardcore," madness, I really liked that song. And it fits with Dean and Sammy dying all over the place and Dean's deal.
And in time all things shall pass away
In time you may come back someday.
To live once more
To die once more
But in time your time will be no more

You know your days are numbered
Count 'em one by one
Like notches in the handle of an outlaw's gun
You can outrun the devil if you try
But you will never outrun the hands of time
Plus the Punisher winds up killing the Harry Heck assassin guy who sings the song, so his song doesn't quite come to pass, and that fits with the fact that Sammy's totally gonna save Dean. 'Cause they've got work to do.

Aaaand the ginormous zipfile! Haven't you always wanted one?

... it's just that the end of every TV show is inevitable (Yes, Fred, even if you stand up, look it in the eye, and say "You're evitable!").
Well, maybe not Law & Order, but still.

And so it is that my perfect ending to Supernatural is this:
The two of them driving off-- at night- no sunset/sunrise nonsense 'cause that's just cliché, and yes, that includes you Star Trek: The Next Generation.
Anyway, the two of them driving off in the Metallicar with the stereo blasting "Another One Bites The Dust". And I don't care if they stopped the demon or found out what his deal was (though obviously I'd like to know), so long as they keep on keepin' on:
Another one bites the dust,
Another one bites the dust,
And another one gone, and another one gone,
Another one bites the dust,
Hey, I'm gonna get you too,
Another one bites the dust...

In which the WB reruns the one episode I don't have on tape and things get mushy.
I've never been so lost,
I've never felt so much at home…
--Something Corporate

Sam closes his eyes and leans back. He lets his body fall to the mattress as he savors the taste of chocolate in his mouth. Something wet hits his forehead. A leak? He opens his eyes. And sees her. Bleeding. Burning. No!
He opens his eyes. And sees the dashboard of his brother's car. Through the windshield, he watches the blacktop roll underneath them. He sneaks a glance at his brother just in time to catch Dean sneaking a glance at him. Dean's eyes snap back to the road.
"You got a vision quest for us?"
"Nope."
They ride in silence for a while, until Dean reaches his hand to push the cassette tape back in and "Stairway to Heaven" gears up.
. . .
Sam lets his eyelids droop before he settles on the bed to wait for Jessica to finish her shower. He feels water drip on his forehead. He opens his eyes expecting to see her standing over him. Laughing as she wrings out her hair on his face. That is not what he sees. She is over him, but not laughing, dying. Obscenely defying gravity as the flames consume her. No!
Sam opens his eyes expecting to see Dean looking over at him from the driver's seat. That is what he sees. Dean turns the music back on.
"Have you ever loved a woman?" Sam asks before his brother can turn up the volume.
Without taking his eyes from the road, Dean smirks, "I love having sex with women."
"Would you stop being a macho ass for 5 seconds and answer the damn question!"
Now Dean spares his brother a glance, "Jeez man, what crawled up your butt?"
"Never mind," Sam huffs and turns to stare out the window.
. . .
He dozes in his bed. It's raining, but he's inside. This can't be right. He opens his eyes. It's raining blood and pain and death. Then the fire comes to take the rain away and- No!
He opens his eyes. It's raining plain, clean water. They're stuck in traffic.
"I'm serious about this Dean, have you ever," Sam searches for the right way to put it, "had something longer than a one-night stand?"
"Well there was this two-night stand-" Dean starts; then seems to think better of it, "I know where you're headed with this Sammy, and it's not your fault."
"But if this thing is after me--"
Dean cuts him off, "Then it's after you, but it's still not your fault. You were a baby when it took Mom, what could you have possibly done to make it your fault?"
Dean's words have that stubborn Dean finality in them, so Sam drops it.
. . .
His eyes are closed as he lies back onto the bed because on some level, he knows what's coming. When he feels the drips, he shakes his head as if to dislodge them. Finally, reluctantly, he opens his eyes. Jessica is sprawled out on the ceiling, as always. Her abdomen is sliced open, as always. And then the flames start, as always. And as always, his only thought is No!
He opens his eyes. It's only the dashboard, as always. Dean's concerned look returns to stoic calm when Sam looks at him, as always. And as always, Dean reaches over to start up the music, but this time Sam stops him.
"And Rockford?"
"What?" Dean is startled.
"Is Rockford my fault?"
Dean stares at the road like it's the most fascinating piece of pavement he has ever seen, but Sam prefers this to an instant change of subject or some wisecrack dismissal.
When Dean does speak, it's so quietly that Sam almost misses it.
"Do you really hate me that much?"
"No." Sam puts everything he has into that simple syllable. He wishes the word were longer, "Never." He doesn't dare look at his brother, until Dean does what Dean does best: makes Sammy feel safe.
"So Sammy," Dean drawls, "I called you 'Sammy' earlier and you didn’t correct me. Does this mean you're finally over the whole 'Sam' thing?"
"It's Sam, jackass." Maybe what Dean does best is make Sam feel like he's 12.
And Dean can't let his little brother have the last word, now can he? "'Jackass'? That's the best insult you can come up with? Did they teach you nothing in college?"